I didn't blog much about the baby because I was really behind on the blog and didn't have time to catch up before everything happened. So, now I am going to tell you about my 10 weeks with my baby. I found out that I was pregnant on October 8th. I had taken several pregnancy tests that were negative so I thought that I was not pregnant. My grandmother passed away so we went home to KY for the funeral. When we got back home I decided to take another pregnancy test as I was officially late. I took a cheap Walmart test and immediately it was positive. Nate ran into the living room and gave Brad the positive test. He was so proud to show his daddy what he had. Brad told me to go buy a digital and take it again. Pregnant! Lance was here at our house so he was the first person to know. We called our parents and siblings and let them know. Nate was so excited and said that he was getting a baby "sista named Daisy".
The next day (and the next) I took tests and all were pregnant. Actually I took test for several more days because there is nothing better than seeing that pink line!
My first appointment was on 10/21/09 with the nurse practitioner Dana Oberg. I told her that I was feeling great, no morning sickness or tiredness. I told her that this pregnancy was so different than with Nate. By six weeks I was already sick and super tired with him. I also told her that none of the early pregnancy test showed up but that I got my first positive when I was a day late and they have all been really dark lines since then. She said that she was concerned because of the lack of symptoms, the early tests not showing up and the fact that I had miscarried before. She asked if I wanted an early ultrasound and of course, I did.
The ultrasound was done on 10/28/09 at the Herrin office. It was the same nice lady that did all of my previous ultrasounds with Nate. She put the wand in and immediately there was the little heartbeat. It was beating 121 beats a minutes which she said was good. The baby was measuring 0.46 cm which was about 5 days behind where I should have been but she said that the dr would probably just change my due date to 6/21/09. She said that everything looked great. The baby was laying right up against me and would not move. All ready another momma's baby!
Two days later, I started getting sick. Really sick. All day long sick. I ate nothing but breadsticks and sprite for days on end. Then I started craving meat which is really strange because I don't eat meat. I ate lots of tacos and hamburgers. I even dreamed about hamburgers. For about two weeks I was sick and then that went away and I felt great. I was worried and called the dr and the nurse said to just be thankful that the morning sickness was gone.
My next appointment was with Dr Jones on 11/19/09 and well, you know the rest.
In my mind, this baby was a girl. That is what Nate told us even before we knew we were pregnant. About a week before we found out we were pregnant, he started telling us that he was getting a "baby sista". So, this baby will always be a girl in my mind. Anytime we told him that he may get a brother he adamantly said "no, it is a sista." I really wanted to name a little girl "Leni" so this was my little girl named Leni. I know that she is up in heaven with her other sibling that I lost at 5 weeks on 08/06/06 and that they are both watching over Nate.
Nate has mentioned the baby a couple of times and tells me that baby Daisy is in heaven with God. It is so heartbeaking to hear him say that in his little voice but so soothing to hear it at the same time. I have not really said much to him unless he asks because honestly I don't know what to say to him. One night he asked me if there were mommies in heaven and I told him that sometimes mommies had to go to heaven but that his mommy was staying home with him. He then said that was why baby Daisy had to go to heaven was to be with a mommy up there. He has been able to come up with the best reasoning on his own. He asked me the other night why there was no baby in mommy's tummy anymore. I reminded him that the baby went to be with God in heaven and he said "but I was going to share my duckies with her". I just held him and cried.
This is such a hard time for us but I am so thankful to have a happy healthy baby at home and know that there was a reason for this to happen. My baby was looking over me so that this growth could be found and taken care of. For that, I will always be especially grateful for her.
The next day (and the next) I took tests and all were pregnant. Actually I took test for several more days because there is nothing better than seeing that pink line!
My first appointment was on 10/21/09 with the nurse practitioner Dana Oberg. I told her that I was feeling great, no morning sickness or tiredness. I told her that this pregnancy was so different than with Nate. By six weeks I was already sick and super tired with him. I also told her that none of the early pregnancy test showed up but that I got my first positive when I was a day late and they have all been really dark lines since then. She said that she was concerned because of the lack of symptoms, the early tests not showing up and the fact that I had miscarried before. She asked if I wanted an early ultrasound and of course, I did.
The ultrasound was done on 10/28/09 at the Herrin office. It was the same nice lady that did all of my previous ultrasounds with Nate. She put the wand in and immediately there was the little heartbeat. It was beating 121 beats a minutes which she said was good. The baby was measuring 0.46 cm which was about 5 days behind where I should have been but she said that the dr would probably just change my due date to 6/21/09. She said that everything looked great. The baby was laying right up against me and would not move. All ready another momma's baby!
Two days later, I started getting sick. Really sick. All day long sick. I ate nothing but breadsticks and sprite for days on end. Then I started craving meat which is really strange because I don't eat meat. I ate lots of tacos and hamburgers. I even dreamed about hamburgers. For about two weeks I was sick and then that went away and I felt great. I was worried and called the dr and the nurse said to just be thankful that the morning sickness was gone.
My next appointment was with Dr Jones on 11/19/09 and well, you know the rest.
In my mind, this baby was a girl. That is what Nate told us even before we knew we were pregnant. About a week before we found out we were pregnant, he started telling us that he was getting a "baby sista". So, this baby will always be a girl in my mind. Anytime we told him that he may get a brother he adamantly said "no, it is a sista." I really wanted to name a little girl "Leni" so this was my little girl named Leni. I know that she is up in heaven with her other sibling that I lost at 5 weeks on 08/06/06 and that they are both watching over Nate.
Nate has mentioned the baby a couple of times and tells me that baby Daisy is in heaven with God. It is so heartbeaking to hear him say that in his little voice but so soothing to hear it at the same time. I have not really said much to him unless he asks because honestly I don't know what to say to him. One night he asked me if there were mommies in heaven and I told him that sometimes mommies had to go to heaven but that his mommy was staying home with him. He then said that was why baby Daisy had to go to heaven was to be with a mommy up there. He has been able to come up with the best reasoning on his own. He asked me the other night why there was no baby in mommy's tummy anymore. I reminded him that the baby went to be with God in heaven and he said "but I was going to share my duckies with her". I just held him and cried.
This is such a hard time for us but I am so thankful to have a happy healthy baby at home and know that there was a reason for this to happen. My baby was looking over me so that this growth could be found and taken care of. For that, I will always be especially grateful for her.
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